what ive done?

i feel bad. seriously. i feel bad to myself. i am a bad person.i knew one guy couples of weeks. i knew he got a gf. he had told me before.we will sms and chat every night until one day we started to change the environment.i mean we started to sms and chat a bit naughty, a bit daring, a bit cheeky. i knew the risk im taken and i knew what gonna happen at the end of the 'frenship'

but i buat bodo je wit that issues. i thought everything gonna be fine. but nowadays i realized how cheap am i, yeah i mean how come i jadi begini. curious.i do deserve better than this. am i some kind of slut? i did something wrong. not only to that guy, the gf but to myself too. i forgot to appreciate myself. i let that thing happen and at the end when i see me in front of the mirror i will keep thinking 'shame on u naz'. malu sangat pada diri sendiri. priceless me. i need to stop that 'frenship' coz im not like dat. im ok wif my life, i got family, frens and lives. yeah a good lives even sumtime i feel alone without a bf. what ive done before this is a mistake. i need to learn from the mistake. furthermore im not in luv wit that guy either. poor little naz. hoping someone who will give her attention until forget to appreciate her own life.

i deserve better. trust me.

Kembali Bersama - Kaer

Saat Pertemuan Itu
Menghadirkan Keindahan
Menafikan Hakikat Sebuah Perpisahan
Dengan Senyuman Manis Bertamu
Bicara Kau Pun Terganggu
Renunganmu Dipaut Pohon Nan Kerinduan
Yang Dulu

Mengapa Harus Resah Tika Bertemu
Sedangkan Dulu Kau Tetap Pilihanku
Seperti Mimpi Dirimu Muncul Kini
Namun Segalanya TersuratBuat Kita
Tetap Bersama Oh Oh

Sejak Tidak Melihatmu
Hidupku Serba Keliru
Hadapanku Hanya Wujud Dalam Bayangan
Oh Bila Senyuman Manis Bertamu
Bicara Kau Pun Terganggu
Renunganmu Dipaut Pohon Nan Kerinduan
Yang Dulu

Mengapa Harus Resah Tika Bertemu
Sedangkan Dulu Kau Tetap Pilihanku
Seperti Mimpi Dirimu Muncul Kini
Namun Segalanya Tersurat
Buat Kita Tetap Bersama

Sekiranya Dulu Kau Masih Disampingku
Impian Kasih BerbungaBertakhta Dihatiku
Ku Harapkan Kau Kembali Bersama Diriku
Tak Ku Duga Kau Menjelmakan Diri
Kasih…… Kasih…… Oh Oh Oh

Seperti Mimpi Dirimu Muncul Kini
Namun Segalanya TersuratBuat Kita Tetap Bersama
Segalanya Tersurat Buat KitaTetap Bersama…

p/s i luv this song. never bored

saturday afternoon

hey blog.

last thursday i went to genting highland wif couple of friends by bus. then get up there by skyway cable car. the temperature not so cold as we thought haha. hot. just imagine how klang after raining. not so cold. we went to the outdoor park, play some games, ride the train, boat hehe all the silly and simple activities to relax our mind. around 1pm it was raining and we decided to have our lunch at kenny rogers. that was the first time ever i saw sarip eat a lot of foods. a bit shock and a bit worried. what happen to her. *winks* then we continue our activities laughing, joking, teasing each other. it was fun. its been a long time we never have so much fun together. we took pictures. i mean a lot of pictures. i have a great day by the way. to leely, sarip, sidah, alan here some note, i luv you guys. you rock my world! and by the way, im posting this blog after 2 days visiting genting because im too tired for typing words. im so damn lazy woman. but im cute. hahaha

p/s hey sean. keep blogging ya

#my.ghost

well semalam ade gath lagik. i mean not a gath. jom jumpe session i think. skada jumpe makan2 minum2, kuar kan cite ape patot, lawak, tuka pendapat. so bukan gath kot? ramai gak org baru. tak kenal pun muke. yg hensem, yg vogue, yg chubby, yg kiut, yg poyo mcm bagos pun ade. hahaha lantak la kan. at least kite kenal la sape org tu. tapi smalam mcm tak berapa seronok. ntah naz yg pk cmtu atau ape. tp mcm diketepikan je.mcm sume ade kwn2, naz termangu je. been ignored. ooops!

finally...

yey at last! im done with my final exams.

even my last paper was damn hard. just pray to Allah. i'll be fine. insya allah.

so i decided a few days ago, bile dah abes exam, nak tido sepuasnya.

ye la im struggling for last 3 papers. tp sadly takleh nak tido lak. hampeh.

but anyway im freee!!! rite now im waiting for my friends. diorang balik je,

teros p bersuke ria. i dun care!

Accepting myself

hello readers. are there any readers? ahaha nvm just pretend there are sum readers hehe

last few days, i noticed a friend of mine, or maybe i just can use the word younger sister in thn crew webnet, Hazlina_Hanim engaged! wow isnt it a surprise?? but i do think back. she have changed herself i guess. she deserves what she have rite now. as far i knew her, from tidak bertudung type jadi bertudung type, perhaps i bole kata she are more matured than myself. she really is. so dia engaged wif her beloved of course. so she gonna be a wife soon. hehe congratz anyway to her. but one think forsure i realize, hey she is younger than me. and she engagaged. and me? still finding myself? or i didnt even know the real me actually. what am i looking for in lives. goals, missions, aims, desires bla bla all those words which i cant define. even im taking personal development class now haha. and i do still remember what afzan told me. there must be sumone for me, but rite now i just cant see it. oh gosh if i ever have a power, let me see for a while pls?hahaha im not tired being alone coz im not alone in this world. but i do feel alone sumtimes. emptiness. deep inside my heart. empty space.

but sumtimes i realized fast. i keep saying all those positive motivation inside my head. accepting myself unconditionally, rewarding myself when credit is due, and the most important thing is no need luv for hurting myself. i do not want that luv typo. so i guess i just wait and see.

Current Mode

hello

after two paper yg dah dijawab semalam dan kelmarin. too lazy to study for mandarin.
esok paper mandarin will be in the morning. MALAS NYA!

hehe haha hihi huhu

3.16 am
24th April

saje online jap nak bitau ptg ni dah start final exam!

24th - Public Speaking
25th - Finance
27th- Mandarin
6th- Marketing
7th- Personal Development
Operation Management

*6th & 7th - all papers are theory papers. conclusion = jangan kacau aku on dat week! *

*lepas paper operation management, jom kite p suke ria hahahahha*

what a..

hello

hah did i stated here b4 all my good frens tak wish my besday yesterday? except for nadia.

well a bit upset la kan no one among them remember. sume bz wif final exams. but the things is, rupe2 nye mereka dah wat satu rancangan. asked me to temankan leely p ptptpn damansara heights and pastu ajak p lunch. rupenye ade makan2 kat pizza hut. and they bought me 5 slices of cakes. hehehe differ cake each. bes bes. diorang kata nak bia i rase sume. wow! btol2 dah menghargai kan? sangat terharu. and nak tau satu cite? rancangan ni hampir kantoi bile pekerja pizza tanya 'cik, nak bwk kek skang ke?' hoh? i tekejot. kek mende lak ni kan? hehehe plus they bought candles yg kalo tiup je nyala balik. hehe penat btol nak tiup. and dia mcm ade bunge api. bes sgttttt. sgt besss. even simple tp sangat sronok bile kite duk ngan kwn2 makan sama2.

ptg lak i went to library study. sampai kul 11pm hehe. ye la duk umah ni susah sket nak study kan? sume pun tau kan. anyway thanks guys yg wat surprise party ni. sbb diorang bersusah payah nak kenekan i. sbb slalu nye i la mastermind in any surprise party. so kire susahla nak wat utk i sbb mcm2 i dah wat dulu. hehehe

My Day

Im 22nd today! Happy Birthday to me. Moga panjang umur, murah rezeki, berjaya dalam hidup dan sihat selalu. amin. yey! ucapan utk diri sendiri ni. Thanks to everyone yang wish ye. tak sangka ramai gak ingat hari jadi naz. anyway sebelah ni besday kek yg dibuat kawan2 kelas finance. hehe tadi kat kelas ade surprise party kecik2 dr kawan2. wah bes la. rase diri dihargai. sangat seronok. teringat plak masa surprise party mase taun lepas. sangattt seronok. ade gak yg wish moga cpat dapat bf. naz amin kan aje. *winks*

WHY PAY MORE

hey kinda long time tade mase nak post blog. actually been busy with studies. assignments. quizzes, tests, presentations. and tak lama lagi nak final dah. and my lucky date was 24, 25, 27, 6, 7 napekah tiada gap? tu je persoalan dihati and for 7th May tu ade dua paper skali gus. GOSH! mintak2 everything will be fine aite? insya allah. mudah mudahan

hah back to the topic. why pay more? hehehe basically this que pop in my mind when i went to sacc (to whom yg jauh dari malaysia sacc stands for shah alam city centre). i went there with sum friends to have lunch. so makan2, jalan2, gelak2 then nak byr parking fees, one of my friend kata 'hey kalo kite bile sumthing in sacc, we only have to pay rm1 for parking' so kami sume decided to ask information centre. so they asked us to go to their office. and u know what, in order to get rm1 for parking fees, we have to walk and walk. the office was in the basement and outside sacc. hahaha sambil jalan tu i ckp ngan my fren. this is the 1st time and the last time i kemaruk nak byr rm1 ehehehe so why pay more? u dun have to find the office, u dun have to walk fast after 15minutes given to move your car. so pay more. is it? hehehe actually ni pun company' s startegy kot. so people wont be bothered.

JOm Jumpe Session Versi 2

Venue - Midvalley Megamall

Time - 2pm (janji melayu)

bebudak #my.ghost wat jom jumpe session again. kali ni lebey ramai. lebey menarik. tuan tanah pun ada with his fiance. i went to mv wif fariz, benz ngan eerin. met pert there. kenal ngan soul_breker ( zal), shah, ody. first time jumpe. tp sgt peramah sume. yg lain sume tetamu bese, iwan, zufry, tuan tanah himself (aie), mem (tunang dia), and buat julung kali nye papajahat (wahyudy) dtg bersama awek and i would like to call mamajahat hehehe. activities? makan2, borak2 sampai lebam, men bowling ( i adalah peserta terhebat dgn jatuhan pin paling rendah) LOL, dan makan2 lagik selepas itu. around 9pm everybody sume balik umah. overall sgt menarik. and iwan makin bole betego sape ngan naz even tak la ramah sgt. tp ok la kan, tego juge. paling klaka bile ody ingat im not Cherish^The^Love. dia ingat i ni [aku-park-nick-aje] hehehe klaka2. lepas ni bile lak jom jumpe session part 3. ehehe teringat lak kat bebudak thncrew kan. lama btol tak jumpe sume.

p/s neem hurry back!

*bengang*

aaa bengang sgt ngan abah arini.
last 2 weeks i ada usulkan pada dia nak tuka internet ke streamyx
well jgn gelak eh sbb currently stil using tmnet dial up.
jawapan dia ketika itu ' akan abah fikirkan'
hari ni i pun bertanya bagaimana dgn cadangan tu
dengan selamba nye dia jwb ' tak tahu, tak larat nak fikir'
aaaaaaaa bengang nyeee!!!!

2nd Concert of AF5

hey blog. well pertaining to the topic above i as an unofficial commentator for AF ( for those out there who dont even know what is AF, actually a reality tv show known as Akademi Fantasia ) would like to comment all the 14 students that performed just now. hehehehe ade nampak pro tak? ekekeke

Candy - Semua Jadi Satu (Kris Dayanti,Ruth Sahanaya&Titi Dj)
A good start performance. Untuk tirai pembukaan Konsert AF yg ke-2. Ada attitude. But tatau nape sebenarnye or other word motive the singers, yeah i mean the 3 Diva dtg and beri ucapan. hahahaha well it works if Astro think it might help to boost up confident level for Candy.

Rizal - Kembali Merindu (Slam)
My favourite contestant actually. Nyanyi dah ok. walaupun toward the end sama je kan. Expression bagus gak cume kan he have a big eyes. so kalo dia besarkan mata mcm nak makan org. TAPI YANG PALING TAK SUKE HARINI DIA MENJAWAB APA YANG PENGKRITIK CKP. BIADAP NAMANYE KALO DLM KAMUS ORG MELAYU. hahaha

Ebi - Bailamos (Enrique Iglesias)
SEXY. enough said. hohoho. well arini pasan yang dia ade ability to influence ME untuk terus tgk dia. and btw the cute little girl yang menari with him was so interesting. with her arabic dance costume. Ebi's voice sangat menggoda. i buy it.

Heliza - Aku Bukan Untukmu (Rossa)
One of student yang i tunggu2. well sangat bagus for the opening part. i mean when other friends kerumun kat dia as a circle. ade la belakon2 antara syawal ngan dekna tp lebey kpd MENYEMAK JE. but one thing forsure i luv her dress. sopan.

Aizat - Basket Case (Greenday)
Bersungguh sungguh. Komited. Size doesnt even matter to him. elok je dia nyanyi lagu ni and very notty2 sket. penuh dgn tenaga. dia berjaya buat i rase eh dia ni kiut je cm greenday.

Fatin - Bila Rindu Ku Sebut Namamu (Siti Fairuz)
Lagu ni ala ala lama gitu. ye la kan kalo tak lama, takkan mak i slamber je nyanyi td kan? mak i ckp dia ni rosakkan lagu. tp Fauziah Latiff kata dia ni lain dr lain. tp cik nazla ckp nape la dibuat lagu ni ala ala dangdut style? ROSAK!

Farha - Biarkan Aku Menangis (Tommy J Pissa)
Hah dia ni mcm sedey. tp tade lak kerut2. mcm nak nanges tp mcm tade pape. suara dia sedey tu. kalo i tutup mata, dgr dia nyanyi, mmg sampai kat hati. tp tgk muke. eh dia ni konpius ke nak sedey ke nak frust ke nak gumbira ke. maybe influenced by his mother yg tak putus2 nak nanges,

Mila - Gotta Tell You (Samantha Mumba)
This is one of my favourite song when i was in school. Mila's voice? sedap didengar. gemersik gitu. tp bile nyanyi lagu ni, tak paham diction dia. ala ala cm dgr ujung2 je suara. mcm cepat penat pun ade Mila ni.

Afiq - Biso Bonar (Hattan)
This is really so called mcm bagus student. yeah dia mmg confident. sampai rase annoyed jugak la. but hey this is my opinion kan. dia nyanyi lagu ni yg sume org tau lagu ni dialek loghat nogori. dia cube la nyanyi cm gaya2 zainal abidin yg nak terbang tp mcm dah jadi tarian sarawak je ekekekeke.

Noni - Mirae (Kiroro)
Not a single word dlm lagu ni i paham. tp comel je dia. baju dia cantik. mekap dia cantik and btol2 nampak mcm org jepun. nyanyi dgn senyum2, eye contact. yeah fine to me i guess

Dekna - Cinta (Amy Mastura)
kononye cinta remaja. ok la kalo dia bagos. i like her tone tp ade prob, nape baju dia pakai tu mcm makcik2 je pegi funfair? hadoi ASTRO PLEASE GUDEI HIM

Dafi - Pencinta Wanita (Irwansyah)
well saya tegode. enough said. sexy + cute + cheeky + notty

Aswad - Nak Kahwin Duit Tak Ada (Sweet September)
adoi mamat penang ni. dah nyampah nengok. bole bile asal bridge lagu dia bantai ckp loghat penang dia je. mcm lari mood i tgk dia nyanyi. menari dia jgn ckp la. kongkang2 abes.

Syawal - Kenangan Mengusik Jiwa (A.Ramlie)
well cheeky with the dancers. nice hair ehehe. dia buat jambul didepan kami. menarik.


based on my opinion antara Afiq and Mila akan kuar this week. tak menarik langsung performance. ntah hape2. hah comment on the clothes baju paling cantik baju Heliza. and btw Ebi tak perlukan haircut. rambut dia ni adalah lucky i okek. ekekeke

Results : Afiq terkeluar minggu ini.

Extras : Sape dapat undian tertinggi konsert minggu ini akan dihadiahkan kebenaran menonton konsert 3 Diva. Syarat nya jika pelajar itu adalah wanita, harus memilih seorang rakan lelaki menemani nya and vice versa.

24th March

I am ToO Lazy to finish up those assignments.
Enough said =)

JOM! JUMPA Session

JOM! JUMPA Session for #my.ghost 15th March

actually sbb tuan tanah turun shah alam lawat tunang. so skali la kan melepak. tak sangka lak ramai yg turun. i mean agak juge la.pert, benz, eerin, tuan tanah himself, sepupu dia, kelise, bladez, grat,deffuser,abe, seffia, jack,amar. ramai gak la. sronok pun sronok.sepupu tuan tanah nama dia fuad. muke mcm fitri af2.kiut2 je org nye. comel dan pemalu. and hah nak kongsi ni, deffuser duduk sebelah i! hehehe hepi btol bile dia dah borak ngan i. after the incident i message him and asked, "we're cool aite?" so agaknye pastu la dia dah tros tego. bes la session tu sampai rase tanak pulang je. tp bese la kan ade cop kad kat umah. so balik awal dari sume org. happening + relaxing session. tq

6 weird things people dont know

actually been tagged by Neem couples days ago, and baru sempat mau reply. hehe well here it goes..

1. not that type of lady who spend long time in the bathroom.

2. big fan of Akademi Fantasia since the 1st season.

3. nescafe = cant sleep.

4. easily thinking wif my emotions instead of brain.

5. good sleep = ligth off + bantal bucuk + 10 hours minimum. LOL

6. usually can think about sumthing else while driving.

I've learned that people will forget what you said,

people will forget what you did,

but people will never forget how you made them feel.

so laugh when you can,

apologise when you should,

let go when you cant change

p/s i miss him

deepest

*berikan aku cinta*

sudah biasa

well dulu i slalu rase rendah diri kan? segan nak join gath. segan nak depan ngan org lain
well itu dulu. skang tidak lagi. im proud to be myself. skang makin lama makin berani berhadapan ngan org lain especially bebudak yg baru kenal.
tadi i ikot kawan i join gath satu cenel kat mirc ni. i tak pnah pun join cenel tu. slamber redah je.
ade la kenal 3-4 org dah thru dat gath. so maknanye tak la susah sgt nak dpt kawan baru.
tp dalam masa yg sama i miss kamil helmy. one of my closest fren currently. so cute and kerek.
kerekness dia tu wat i rase dia sgt istimewa. i miss him. siyesly. and i dah jumpe dia after dia amik i kat uitm and makan2 kat shah alam. then dia anta i balik klang. comel kan? garang2 dia sanggup trun dr bukit tunku ke shah alam and anta i ke klang. hehehe